Bodhisattvas

It's a complex set of feelings to ask for and receive help. Social programming has placed a sliver of shame in there, but i know its origins and know to ignore it. There's definitely a bit of humility. That's a good thing. But mostly, I feel filled with true gratitude and I feel empowered and connected. I am touched by the needed material help being provided but more importantly I am forever indebted for the feelings and the gesture behind it. I wrote most of that go fund me 11 months ago and never posted it because I was scared and I didn't feel worthy of help. Asking for and receiving help speaks directly to the trauma I am working through and to the dysfunction of my inner life that my father's personality disorder created. So I thank everyone from deepest recesses of my soul for holding me in their hearts and honoring my journey.